Nooo motivation......whatsoever.......

I have a good question, and if anyone can answer, please, feel free. Why is it, that even though I KNOW I'm supposed to be going to college at BYU-Idaho, that I have no desire to be there? That I'm just about ready to say 'forget it' and move on? It's an interesting conumdrum that is boggling my mind. And I don't like it. It makes me feel more conflicted than I want to be with all of the other stuff on my mind. I have no motivation to do homework, no motivation to do well. It doesn't make any sense. WHY IS THAT?! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just have to keep going to school, to keep trying to do well in school, even though I don't want to and i think that's one of the hardest things I've ever done. I know better things are coming and I feel really at peace with answers I've gotten and decisions I've made, I'm just really impatient for them to get here. Any advice?

I have come to the realization that......

I have come to the realization that I totally SUCK at keeping an updated blog. But when you are missing a missionary, school is slowly choking you to death and you have a double ear infection, suddenly, posting a blog doesn't really seem all that important. ha ha

Anywho, did you all know I'm going to MARYLAND in August?! Yes ladies and gentlemen, that's right! I can't wait. I'd rather drop out of school...I HATE college. Whoda thunk? That ME, Stephanie Ann McMurtrey, lover of high school, would hate college? Weird, right? Well, I do. I totally wouldn't be at college if I didn't have to. BUT, I am at home as of right now, waiting for a fantabulous mother's day celebration to start, so I will go. Love you! Post more later!