The Start of a New Semester......oh goody......

Despite earlier reservations about starting classes, I'm really excited. I have just about THE most awesome classes, except for math and they're shaping up to be really fun. I'll post more later. I need to be doing homework......

This song just totally popped into my head.....enjoy!

Ah yeah that's right
All you single people out there
This is for you
I'm not waitin' around for a man to save me (Cos I'm happy where I am)
Don't depend on a guy to validate me (No no)
I don't need to be anyone's baby (Is that so hard to understand?)
No I don't need another half to make me whole
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
[Chorus:]
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be I'm single (Right now)
That's how I wanna be
Ah yeah Uh Huh that's right
Don't need to be on somebody's arm to look good (I like who I am)
I'm not saying I don't wanna fall in love 'cos I would
I'm not gonna get hooked up just 'cos you say I should (Can't romance on demand)
I'm gonna wait so I'm sorry if you misunderstood

[Chorus]

Everything in it's right time
everything in it's right place
I know I'll settle down one day
But 'til then I like it this way it's my way
Eh I like it this way
Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

I did it, I'm doin' it!!! GLEE AUDITIONS!!!

HURRAY!!! I finally sucked it up and did it...... YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From This Moment

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything and I will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse, I will love you with every beat of my heart.)
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment
I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live I will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live I will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Swimming at Heise......tra la la la la

Well, I'm going to go swimming today with my sister Amanda and her daughter, Piper. That should be interesting...I hate wearing swimsuits...sometimes it makes me feel more exposed than if I were in ballet class prancing around only in my leo, tights and butt shorts......and that my friends, is pretty exposed. Especially when you're the curviest person in class and the rest of the girls look like they might break if they twisted their leg into an arabesque the wrong way......

ANYWAY, that's what I'm doing today. And then I'm going to concoct something delicious out of basically NO ingredients....I'm thinking something along the lines of stuffed potatoes....bake the potatoes, scoop out the inside, make some hamburger with tomato sauce and cheese and stuff the potato and hamburger and cheese back into the potato skin and BAKE!!! It sounds like it'll work in my head, but we'll see. I'll give you an update on how it turns out. ha ha

To Glee or Not to Glee......that is the question......

Part of me can see what would happen if by nothing short of a miracle I actually made it onto Glee, it would be everything I had ever dreamed of happening; everything that I have been working towards since I was a sophomore in high school. But if I made it......would it be worth it? Would it be worth giving up the other things I dream of? Like, getting married to my best friend, getting a college degree, raising a family......would all of that stuff take a back seat to my career? Is that what I really want? I only have a short time to decide what I want, what I really want and I hope to high heaven that I make the right decision. Pray with all that you have, because I'm going to need it. The decisions I make in the next couple of days, not to sound melodramatic or anything, (But whether or not you realize it, every decision you make has some impact on your future), will affect the rest of my life.

Much love.

Songs of note...ha ha ha

Go the Distance, Hercules


"I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be
I'll be there somedayI can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong
Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through
And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete
But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart
Like a shooting starI can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...
I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms..."

I'm Almost There, The Princess and the Frog

"Mama! I don't have time for dancing!
That's just gonna have to wait a while
Ain't got time for messing around
And it's not my style
This old town can slow you down
People taking the easy way
But I know exactly where I'm going
Getting closer and closer every day
And I'm almost there, I'm almost there
People down here think I'm crazy, but I don't care
Trials and tribulations, I�ve had my share
There ain't nothing gonna stop me now �cause
I'm almost there
I remember Daddy told me: �Fairytales can come true
You gotta make 'em happen, it all depends on you
"So I work real hard each and every day
Now things for sure are going my way
Just doing what I do
Look out boys, I'm coming through
And I'm almost there, I'm almost there
People gonna come here from everywhere
And I'm almost thereI'm almost there
There's been trials and tribulations
You know I've had my share
But I've climbed the mountain, I've crossed the river
And I'm almost there, I'm almost there
I'm almost there!"

People who are tone deaf should not be allowed to sing......and other musings of a boring sunday...

Yeah, let's just say people who are tone deaf...they get on my nerves. Even if as a person they are super cute and fun and awesome...I just don't like them singing off key at the top of their lungs right in my ear... I kind of just want to tell them to stop, you know? Is that totally awful of me?

Oh and another thing...one of my friend's family knows about the missionary... am I that transparent????

Oh and another thing, people need to mind their own business and pull their heads out!!! I was at my friend's wedding reception yesterday (Eric Tinker) and his new wife's family is HORRIBLY nosy and gossipy and self-righteous and all that jazz. I brought my three year old niece with me to the reception so she could play with my other niece (Micky) and Eric's wife's family, while they walked through the line were all like, "Oh my, that girl looks awfully young to have a child that old..." (They said all of this to Eric's mother!) GRRR! I was almost tempted to say, "Yeah she's mine, what of it?"Isn't that awful? At least three different people said that! Is it my fault that my niece looks more like me than her mother?! NO! Sheesh people! Anywho....dinner is almost done...and I'm still trying to devise a way of getting out of Idaho...any ideas? And no, stealing my mother's credit card is NOT an option...yet...

Finals are over! WOOHOO!

I'm SOOO glad finals are over. After they were done, I decided I didn't care! he he, then I completed the move to my new room in my apartment and now I am at home in Rigby for the week long break. I intend to do something spectacular, though I'm not sure what that is... first, I am watching Hercules with Piper! And then...a shower? he he he I'll keep you posted! Mwah! Love you all!

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

-Marianne Williamson

More and more often, this little blurb here has become my anthem. I keep finding myself coming back to it.

Anyway, finals are almost done, I just have one more to go! WOO HOO! It's British Literature and quite possibly my hardest one, I just need to get a good grade on it.... cross your fingers and pray lots for me? :) Also, I have a REALLY bad stress headache. Any ideas on how to get rid of it? I would welcome them, whatever they are.

I need to devise a way of staying sane over the break. I can't go to Salt Lake by myself, A- because I don't have any money, B- because my car would probably blow up and C- I can barely drive in Idaho Falls traffic, let alone something going for different ways just it the city. Urgh, SO wish I could go somewhere. I'll just settle with being content with working on my audition video...

The Convergence of the Twain

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am having so much trouble memorizing this agonizingly ridiculous poem!! Why is that? I can memorize scripts and songs just fine! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm pretty much fine until about the seventh stanza (there are eleven) and then i get all mixed up! I hate British Literature right now. Grrr.......