This is something that I originally wrote in my journal, but one of my good friends convinved me to submit it to the Ensign. So, here it is!
"My whole life has been an experience in trials and I’ve had an especially hard time being patient for special blessings that Heavenly Father has promised me, namely, waiting for my eternal companion. With hardly any spiritual support from my inactive family members, and most recently my good friends, it’s been especially hard to keep my head up, to look towards the future with faith. But, regardless of my situation in life, I cannot lose faith; the gospel has made me who I am. It is my past, present and future and has gotten me through some of the darkest times I’ve ever experienced.
Without any doubts and with everything that I am, I know that The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true. With a fire coursing through my veins and burning in my heart, I know. I know it’s true. The blessings of the temple are real and they’re so close I can almost taste them. I feel like the temple is pulling me closer to it every day, the spirit whispering that it’s true. With every breath I take and with every step I take, my confidence waxes strong and my faith in Christ and Heavenly Father grows.
Even though I’m tired and even though I’m scared, I know that I can never give up. The blessings in store are too great and too important. I know the sorrow and grief and heartache that comes from rejecting the gospel and I will never go back to that place again. It is not only my future that I affect, but the generations to come. I have to keep going; one day at a time, one step at a time. I have to be patient and endure well and the blessings will come. I know that they will. The spirit tells me so. It will only be a little while longer and I know that I must be strong.
I wait in earnest for the day that I will look into a man’s eyes and know in my heart that he is the one I’ve been waiting for; I wait in earnest for the day that I will walk into the temple and kneel across the altar from my eternal companion; I wait in earnest for the day that Heavenly Father will send me the special spirits that have been waiting so patiently and been so kind and encouraging to me. I can’t wait to finally hold them in my arms; to tell them that I love and appreciate all that they’ve done for me during the hard times. For those days, I strive to wait patiently. For those days, I wait with faith.